what if you weren't here tomorrow

what if you weren't here tomorrow

if you weren't going to be there tomorrow

i would hug you for a long time

and not just the kind of hug thats a "see ya" kind of hug

the kind of hug where it almost gets awkward because

people don't know how long to stand there for

or when to let go, or what to say.....

that kind of hug is the one i would give you

if you weren't going to be there tomorrow

i would tell you how much i love you

and not just he kind of "goodnight, love ya!"

but the kind of i love you that freaks you out a little

cause you don't know what they're thinking

as they look right into your eyes

thats the kind of i love you i'd say

if you weren't going to be there tomorrow

i would want to laugh

not at you, or at the fact that i wouldn't see you

but the kind of laughter that brings people to tears

the kind when something is so funny that your laugh almost

becomes silent and you just double over

the one where it's only you and the other person laughing

and only you two get it

that's the kind of laugh i would laugh

if you weren't going to be there tomorrow

i would say sorry

not the pity kind of "ohhh that sucks, sorry!"

but sorry for everything i've done to hurt you

every word, every action that caused you pain

I wouldnt' just ramble it though....i would mean it

cause i am, and i do.

that's the kind of sorry i would say to you

if you weren't going to be there tomorrow

i would cry. Not the kind of crying you do in sad movies

or when you hurt yourself really badly. But the kind of crying

that means life will never ever ever be the same without you

The kind that attempts to heal the ache inside and you don't know

how else to fix it, so you just cry. But the ache doesn't leave....

that's the kind of crying i would do

but you always end up being there tomorrow. what if i miss my chance one day.