no suzanne haha i am not writing this because i know you know my blog, but with every acting class, every time i'm on set as an extra i become more and more excited about it. Seriously, every time i get that attachment for a new "side" (i've learnt that a side is 'part of a script') i become more and more and more excited.
Recently though i was informed that when i'm scared or nervous...i have a certain strategy. It's my defense mechanism...my natural reaction i guess...and it's not a good one at that. My way of protecting myself from embarrassment or insecurity is to be a bitch. i was completely unaware until my acting coach pointed it out. Cause all I'M thinking is "holy crap im nervous/intimidated right now". I wonder how you change that.
I mean it's funny though. Cause i'm really good at picking out other people's automatic defense mechanisms, which they don't realize they're doing, but i can't pick up on my own.
and okay the caffeine deprivation has officially taken over my brain so i cannot finish this blog, which was poorly written due to this lil nuisance anyways haha. gnite
