who knew that the day you let us make our own decisions was the day that you'd kick us out of the family if we didn't choose your way.
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1) it's weird to think we were ever alike...because now that i talk to you, now that i see you again, i can't imagine that we were ever the same person. Who changed? me? you?...both i guess. And as much as i'd like to, i can't block you out of my life. Not that i'd necessarily want to, but...yknow...we just do not get along.
2) i've tried. I've tried to show you. I've tried to let you see, that i'm going to be me. I'm going to find my own faith, my own way. And being part of a family does not mean being a christian. You'd realize that isn't it about helping me as much as you can, and then letting me do the rest? It's my belief, its my life. I'm not saying i don't believe, but if you force me to go....i'll run.
3) I'm sorry I've been mia. i just needed the break. that's all. You'll still always be one of my #1's. forever and ever. Despite our differences, you've been here the whole time, and i wouldnt want to see you leave.
4) I know, and im sorry. I should have said something, but its selfish and thats why i didn't. But sometimes...only sometimes...i feel like what i have to say doesn't matter as much...
5) let me get my N....its my right. not a privelege. you don't get to determine that. you can't blackmail me
6) thanks for being the big sister and the little sister. You pull your weight a lot more than you should
7) i'm tired of pretending to care...goodbye.
8) yes i still remember you, i just don't have the energy to reunite. I still think about you, but...thats all.
9) i'm not ready to say goodbye, but at the same time curious to see whats ahead
10) you choose sides...its not fair, but i guess thats life. That's how you work, and i'm sorry it turned out that way.
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2) i've tried. I've tried to show you. I've tried to let you see, that i'm going to be me. I'm going to find my own faith, my own way. And being part of a family does not mean being a christian. You'd realize that isn't it about helping me as much as you can, and then letting me do the rest? It's my belief, its my life. I'm not saying i don't believe, but if you force me to go....i'll run.
3) I'm sorry I've been mia. i just needed the break. that's all. You'll still always be one of my #1's. forever and ever. Despite our differences, you've been here the whole time, and i wouldnt want to see you leave.
4) I know, and im sorry. I should have said something, but its selfish and thats why i didn't. But sometimes...only sometimes...i feel like what i have to say doesn't matter as much...
5) let me get my N....its my right. not a privelege. you don't get to determine that. you can't blackmail me
6) thanks for being the big sister and the little sister. You pull your weight a lot more than you should
7) i'm tired of pretending to care...goodbye.
8) yes i still remember you, i just don't have the energy to reunite. I still think about you, but...thats all.
9) i'm not ready to say goodbye, but at the same time curious to see whats ahead
10) you choose sides...its not fair, but i guess thats life. That's how you work, and i'm sorry it turned out that way.
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we live with no regrets
I don't believe in regrets. I mean sure teen pregnancy, not studying for a test and then failing it?? those can be seen as regrets. But on the broader sense, I believe that nobody should regret anything in life. Of course there are exceptions, but you know what i mean...
No one should regret though because I believe that everything we go through in life happens for a reason. yes i'm a believer in this cliche. But the thing is, we learn through everything we do in life, so why miss out on the opportunity to become a stronger person due to a tough situation you may have regarded as a regret. That's why i'm impulsive, i jump into situations without really thinking about it. Which is bad, but its also taught me a lot of things, because live without regrets. I don't live thinking "if only i had...".
Everything happens for a reason.
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No one should regret though because I believe that everything we go through in life happens for a reason. yes i'm a believer in this cliche. But the thing is, we learn through everything we do in life, so why miss out on the opportunity to become a stronger person due to a tough situation you may have regarded as a regret. That's why i'm impulsive, i jump into situations without really thinking about it. Which is bad, but its also taught me a lot of things, because live without regrets. I don't live thinking "if only i had...".
Everything happens for a reason.
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we lived and we learned
first day of school, and you bit your nails to eat away the nerves
you load your desk with new pencil crayons, arranged like the rainbow
the first teardrop comes when you watch your mom walk out the door
and then you get a little scared, cause you're realize your alone
your best friend becomes the girl you sat beside
and you shared your favorite dolls
but then came time to move along, and you left that year behind
and that's the heartbreak of highschool
the regret of goodbyes
the faces of unforgettable that slowly fade with time
its the signatures in every yearbook that pile upon a shelf
its gonna be a long road to recovery
its gonna take time to believe that the biggest problems
we thought were world altering, were only mind altering
and even then only for the moment
time to realize the hands we held were only to fill the space
but there's always goodbyes, there's never forevers
and sooner or later no one remembers
the times we cried over love lost and stress
or who at grad wore the prettiest dress
the last day of middle school, you were the top of the chain
and as you walked down the halls they all knew your name
you could be as loud as you wanted, or the quiet nobody
because next year you knew was going to be different
next year was highschool, next year was fun
and before you even knew it, grade nine had begun
and you walked out of smallville and into the game
into the house of good times and pain
and that's the heartbreak of highschool
the regret of goodbyes
the faces of unforgettable that slowly fade with time
its the signatures in every yearbook that pile upon a shelf
its gonna be a long road to recovery
its gonna take time to believe that the biggest problems
we thought were world altering, were only mind altering
and even then only for the moment
time to realize the hands we held were only to fill the space
but there's always goodbyes, there's never forevers
and sooner or later no one remembers
the times we cried over love lost and stress
or who at grad wore the prettiest dress
final year, your closing months, and you realize your friendships
were everything to you, the books you studied, the animals disected
were nothing more than required marks,
but the people you did it with, the shared schedules and locker buddies
were where the memories came from
and as your graduation cap falls back down to the ground
the last tears fall with it as you look around
you're saying goodbye, you're doing it right
this is the most unforgettable goodnight
and that's the heartbreak of highschool
the regret of goodbyes
the faces of unforgettable that slowly fade with time
its the signatures in every yearbook that pile upon a shelf
its gonna be a long road to recovery
its gonna take time to believe that the biggest problems
we thought were world altering, were only mind altering
and even then only for the moment
time to realize the hands we held were only to fill the space
but there's always goodbyes, there's never forevers
and sooner or later no one remembers
the times we cried over love lost and stress
or who at grad wore the prettiest dress
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you load your desk with new pencil crayons, arranged like the rainbow
the first teardrop comes when you watch your mom walk out the door
and then you get a little scared, cause you're realize your alone
your best friend becomes the girl you sat beside
and you shared your favorite dolls
but then came time to move along, and you left that year behind
and that's the heartbreak of highschool
the regret of goodbyes
the faces of unforgettable that slowly fade with time
its the signatures in every yearbook that pile upon a shelf
its gonna be a long road to recovery
its gonna take time to believe that the biggest problems
we thought were world altering, were only mind altering
and even then only for the moment
time to realize the hands we held were only to fill the space
but there's always goodbyes, there's never forevers
and sooner or later no one remembers
the times we cried over love lost and stress
or who at grad wore the prettiest dress
the last day of middle school, you were the top of the chain
and as you walked down the halls they all knew your name
you could be as loud as you wanted, or the quiet nobody
because next year you knew was going to be different
next year was highschool, next year was fun
and before you even knew it, grade nine had begun
and you walked out of smallville and into the game
into the house of good times and pain
and that's the heartbreak of highschool
the regret of goodbyes
the faces of unforgettable that slowly fade with time
its the signatures in every yearbook that pile upon a shelf
its gonna be a long road to recovery
its gonna take time to believe that the biggest problems
we thought were world altering, were only mind altering
and even then only for the moment
time to realize the hands we held were only to fill the space
but there's always goodbyes, there's never forevers
and sooner or later no one remembers
the times we cried over love lost and stress
or who at grad wore the prettiest dress
final year, your closing months, and you realize your friendships
were everything to you, the books you studied, the animals disected
were nothing more than required marks,
but the people you did it with, the shared schedules and locker buddies
were where the memories came from
and as your graduation cap falls back down to the ground
the last tears fall with it as you look around
you're saying goodbye, you're doing it right
this is the most unforgettable goodnight
and that's the heartbreak of highschool
the regret of goodbyes
the faces of unforgettable that slowly fade with time
its the signatures in every yearbook that pile upon a shelf
its gonna be a long road to recovery
its gonna take time to believe that the biggest problems
we thought were world altering, were only mind altering
and even then only for the moment
time to realize the hands we held were only to fill the space
but there's always goodbyes, there's never forevers
and sooner or later no one remembers
the times we cried over love lost and stress
or who at grad wore the prettiest dress
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i tried listening to my head
i'm going to miss this. Honestly right now, i'm trying to seperate my heart and my head. I'm trying to numb out the deep ache in my heart, and i'm trying to think about other things...but it's too late for that. The momentum of grad is carrying us towards at time where all we'll have left is the images on facebook, the yearbook write up's, and the passing thoughts of the good times we had. I wish it were easier. I wish that everyone could stay and we could all come back to school next september. I can't imagine not...i mean it's so normal seeing the familiar faces in the hall. going to the pod and knowing that there'll be someone there that you can talk to, even if its not one of your closer friends. I guess grad camping brought that out of me. Seeing everyone together, having fun, but knowing all along...we're just building up the goodbyes.
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once upon a time i knew you
i feel like i've been seperating acquaintances from true friendships. Drawing in the ones that matter and focusing purely on strengthening and opening myself up to the ones that are close to me rather than seeking out new friendships....
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